im not sure I can even handle talking to her

she's just had her first baby.

she's split up with her boyfriend, because he told her half way through the pregnancy to terminate because... because he said he only wanted a boy what a caaant , and because he was going with other girls in front of her

and....

jesus. she said this almost as an aside. her brother died last week.

and she's just had to start working bars to get money.

she's a bit stressed.

id say that that is an example of someone whose beauty has been more of a curse to her than a benefit.

im too old for all this shti ffs.

im like half "you've done all the hard work. you can't pull out now on the final day procession to Paris", and half, "you already won sann. just leave it."

I remember when my gran died. my 18th birthday.

it meant nothing to me until the day of her funeral.

it was almost like it was quite cool because the teachers were nice to me at school.

then about a mile from her house on the way to meet up to go to the funeral, it hit me. like a fackin wall.

I suspect she's still where I was. which means the wall's still coming.

I miss my girl phnom penh.

one from last night's hung up on me anyway !!

yeah, she wants to meet at 11

dont think this is the 'spend a bit of time with me later' thing she mentioned this afternoon

I turned her down.

she called back and said she'll meet me at 9.30.

this will go

"what do you want from this ?"

"no idea tbh"

"how long you in Cambodia ?"

"few days probably"

"what's your job ?"

"haven't got one"

"how much money have you got ?"

"not much"

"bye"

im not quite sure how im going to explain this.

you know, I kind of thought that's what he said.

I actually don't care.

I think it's quite funny. except for the ear rings, and the gecko, and the gecko girl. because I assume it's all related.

there are actually so many funny things about it

haven't laughed so much for fackin years tbh

those ttis on that gecko girl. unbelievable.

I actually think this one was different. to the other one I mentioned. it's the only explanation I can think of.

fk's sake

it turns out that the lad I told I was going to nail to the post last night knows the local hard boys. this one lad tells me calmly he fights anyone. he was decent enough though even if the post guy didnt want to leave it.


anyway, I spent 20 minutes kissing the gecko girl lookalike again before I realised it was the lookalike

and that was siem reap...

for 20 minutes the world was a great place again and everything was fine.

they brought a whole team out for me. one looked like giant haystacks, then there was fight anyone lad, some tall black guy, and the post guy chirping away.

was quite glad to get home tbh

pretty sure the earrings the girl had on tonight were also the same as a pair my girl phnom penh has.

god I want to see her so much again now.

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nice one sann

top of the league now is it ?